The traits of introversion are an asset when someone is burdened with a chronic illness. It has been two years since my diagnosis of Myasthenia Gravis. All of my muscles are weakened. My arms, hands and legs have lost strength. I have double/triple vision. It is difficult to speak because my chest muscles are not strong enough to move my vocal chords. Over exerting makes all of this worse. Rest has been emphasized as a key part of treatment. When this began, I was still working. I expected the illness to be followed by recovery. I grieved my busy life.
Prior to this illness, I developed the ability to go inside myself for answers. I love to read. I love to make art. I find myself in the zone, when creating. Seclusion doesn’t scare me; it delights me. Silence fills me up.
I know people who need commotion and drama to fill themselves up. They need outside structure and conversation. A person with those needs would have a much more difficult time coping with the isolation of chronic illness.
I am not accepting my situation. I do miss my activities. However, I believe that I am having an easier time because I can find joy in solitude.